Hope

Hope...is lost for those who never believe they have it!

I feel like a very lost soul.

I know we all have times in our lives when we just forget we are loved!

For me love was not given from the people I call parents. I am now a mother, how do I break the cycle.

When I was eight, just after I was baptized I felt the spirit tell me that I was stronger than I knew.

My life has been one wrong turn after another. I know I am the black sheep. I know I make mistakes. I know that I have a strength that has kept me sane in the dark.

Where do you find love, feel love, hope for love in a world of none.

I found it by an act of violence---but that act gave me an angel that I did not know I would keep. One small moment changed for me when everyone in my life abandoned me. I was told they loved me and would help me...in the end I was Alone!

We all struggle. We all make mistakes. We all believe in something bigger than us. I have never been strong in the church, never really felt I belonged, never saw how I could be.

Yet, I know I may not feel welcome or strong, but I have a deep heart that will always be open. I have broken the cycle, I do love and am loved. I may not be perfect according to the world's standards, but I am who I am.

I can love and will love even when it was not given to me. I wake up every morning to my three silly kids and a husband who loves me -- broken or whole. Also a mother-in law who has taught me about love.

So in the end Hope is real even for a lost soul like me!

"I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble" -Helen Keller-