Sunday, June 20, 2010
Cross Stitches
I believe I'm not very crafty, yet everyone around me tells me differently. One day I might start believing them. I decided to make birth records for my kids that would last longer than paper or pictures. So I made cross stitches for each of them, my hope was to get them done before they were born--that did not happen. Becca was the only one that got done before she came. For the other two, that did not happen. I am happy to say all my kids have one from a very loving mom!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Hope
Hope...is lost for those who never believe they have it!
I feel like a very lost soul.
I know we all have times in our lives when we just forget we are loved!
For me love was not given from the people I call parents. I am now a mother, how do I break the cycle.
When I was eight, just after I was baptized I felt the spirit tell me that I was stronger than I knew.
My life has been one wrong turn after another. I know I am the black sheep. I know I make mistakes. I know that I have a strength that has kept me sane in the dark.
Where do you find love, feel love, hope for love in a world of none.
I found it by an act of violence---but that act gave me an angel that I did not know I would keep. One small moment changed for me when everyone in my life abandoned me. I was told they loved me and would help me...in the end I was Alone!
We all struggle. We all make mistakes. We all believe in something bigger than us. I have never been strong in the church, never really felt I belonged, never saw how I could be.
Yet, I know I may not feel welcome or strong, but I have a deep heart that will always be open. I have broken the cycle, I do love and am loved. I may not be perfect according to the world's standards, but I am who I am.
I can love and will love even when it was not given to me. I wake up every morning to my three silly kids and a husband who loves me -- broken or whole. Also a mother-in law who has taught me about love.
So in the end Hope is real even for a lost soul like me!
"I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble" -Helen Keller-
I feel like a very lost soul.
I know we all have times in our lives when we just forget we are loved!
For me love was not given from the people I call parents. I am now a mother, how do I break the cycle.
When I was eight, just after I was baptized I felt the spirit tell me that I was stronger than I knew.
My life has been one wrong turn after another. I know I am the black sheep. I know I make mistakes. I know that I have a strength that has kept me sane in the dark.
Where do you find love, feel love, hope for love in a world of none.
I found it by an act of violence---but that act gave me an angel that I did not know I would keep. One small moment changed for me when everyone in my life abandoned me. I was told they loved me and would help me...in the end I was Alone!
We all struggle. We all make mistakes. We all believe in something bigger than us. I have never been strong in the church, never really felt I belonged, never saw how I could be.
Yet, I know I may not feel welcome or strong, but I have a deep heart that will always be open. I have broken the cycle, I do love and am loved. I may not be perfect according to the world's standards, but I am who I am.
I can love and will love even when it was not given to me. I wake up every morning to my three silly kids and a husband who loves me -- broken or whole. Also a mother-in law who has taught me about love.
So in the end Hope is real even for a lost soul like me!
"I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble" -Helen Keller-
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